“Only when he no longer knows what he is doing does the painter do good things.” – Edgar Degas
The paintings of impressionist artists have taught me how to live.
I could spend hours staring at the works of Renoir, Degas, and Monet.
The interest I have for these artists and their work began in middle school art class when I learned impressionism can be identified by several unique characteristics:
Continue reading “Recovery and the Art of Not Knowing”
We have all heard some variation of the “golden rule” since pre-school or before.
“Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.”
But what if you don’t think you should be treated well?
Continue reading “Learn to Love the Body You Have Conditioned Yourself to Hate”
We ask our loved ones to help us for many reasons – a ride home from the eye doctor, a home-cooked meal after we’ve had the flu, an extra $20 until our next paycheck.
Those are the debts we can repay easily, the kinds of favors that leave us with a warm, fuzzy feeling.
What about when you can’t ask for help? When you don’t want help? When the help you need is long term?
People with mental illnesses or addictions often feel this way. I did during my recovery from anorexia nervosa.
Continue reading “The Gift of Recovery – Moving Beyond ‘I’m Sorry’”
For many people happiness stands on a pedestal, while other emotions fall far below.
But danger lies in thinking this way. It leads to the idea that feeling other emotions indicates a lower quality of life.
That’s not true.
A full and vibrant life requires the full spectrum of emotions – pleasant and unpleasant.
I know because I have lived through feeling nothing at all – even when surrounded by those who love me.
Continue reading “Life Sucks Sometimes and I am Grateful”
My recovery required that I stop doing two of the things I loved most. I couldn’t go to school and I couldn’t do any cardio activities. I was pissed. I was angry and sorry for myself and I couldn’t understand why those two things had to be taken from me.
I remember thinking, “How will I survive quitting running and school? How can I ever be successful?”
Continue reading “I Didn’t Take a Year Off and Neither Should You”
This semester has been a challenge for me academically. I have had to start two additional blogs for my already writing heavy classes and regularly post content to them– which is honestly why I have not posted here lately #oops.
I love it. I know that I am learning a lot.
Yet I still sometimes cry my eyes out at 1 a.m. in frustration at all of the work I have to do.
Why? Because learning freaking hurts.
Continue reading “You WILL Screw Up”
For most people, the holidays are wonderful. They are full of family, friends, laughter and love.
For people who struggle with things such as illness, anxiety, eating disorders, self-harm, and familial difficulties, the holidays can bring tremendous stress and anxiety.
The best way to help everyone have a stress-less holiday season is to be conscious of what comes out of our mouths- shocker, I know. It is easier said than done, though. I have compiled a list of things NOT to say this holiday season. Many of them are seemingly normal. They are ingrained in our culture and I hear them WAY too often and I even catch myself saying them sometimes… without even realizing it.
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One of my professors recently asked my class the following questions:
1. What made you choose St. Bonaventure?
2. What are the similarities of the people who are in the “Bona-Bubble” (the Bonaventure community)?
My answer to both of these questions is the same and I didn’t even have to think about it: I go to St. Bonaventure because we are all door-holders.
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I am weight restored and I have been steadily maintaining this weight for months now.
My blood labs are all normal.
My heart is beating at a safe rate.
I am eating a healthy amount of calories for my energy expenditure.
I can run, I can lift weights, and I do not constantly feel like I will pass out.
I can remember things.
I can eat a meal without trembling in fear.
I am grateful and proud of all the above statements… but less than a year ago, none of them were true. Less than a year ago, any person who saw me walk down the street would have told you they were worried I was going to collapse. I looked frail, sick, and hollow.
Continue reading “I Am Still Physically Ill, You Just Can’t See It.”
For my first official post I am linking up with Julia for Mental Health Monday! Check out her page to learn all about it!
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